Busy the past several weeks. Busy at home--parties and celebrations (Aloha Fest at the Presidio, Choir August Birthdays, Filipino Festival at Yerba Buena Gardens, Guam Festival in Sacramento) and shopping (computers/electronics and mattresses for the girls, drapery/painting/flooring/furniture for the new computer room at the house). Busy at work--too many projects. So busy I haven't had a chance to blog.

So busy that I haven't had a chance to do my annual newsletter. So busy that I haven't updated my website (it hasn't been updated for over 2 years) eventhough I was hoping to update it before my birthday.

Green Day rocks. Finally got American Idiot...thought I could just borrow Liz's but I finally decided to get it myself. They're my new favorite band. I liked some of their previous songs but wasn't much into punk rock. I started to like alternative which is sort of like punk rock. But yeah--Green Day and Lifehouse are my favorite bands!!

Had a great dream this morning which ended when the alarm clock went off...a good thing because now I remember every detail. I dreamt that somehow Hayden Christensen was sleeping over...nothing sexual...seemed like we were out late (hanging out as friends). Had to go to work that morning and he had to go back to his place (or hotel room) in SF. He was still sleepy but I was somehow able to get him in the backseat of the car. Then I drove to the BART station speeding to catch the next train (looked like I was driving to the Concord BART station but when I got there it looked like the Pleasant Hill station). I got out and he was sleeping in the back seat. I knew that the train would be there in five minutes so I asked him softly to wake up or we'd miss the train. He was still sleepy because he stirred slightly and mumbled, "Hmmm?" I could hear the train coming so I bent down and whispered in his ear, "Hayden the train will be here soon. Did you want to just catch the next train which will be here in 10-15 minutes?" He replied back softly, "Yes, I just want to stay here for awhile." But as I was slowly pulling away watching him lie there his eyes opened slightly and for a moment our eyes locked. Then I felt his hand slowly draw my head towards his and he kissed me gently. I could feel my heart burst. Then he told me that he didn't want to go to San Francisco and said that I should call in sick. I wanted to. For a few minutes I lost all my senses. Then I told him that we shouldn't be doing this. That it would just complicate our friendship. Then he said that he wanted to be more than friends. That's when I woke up. I'll never know what happened but from what I remembered it was an amazing feeling kissing him.

didn't do anything extra special for my birthday.  at least i got the day off and got some cute gifts.

woke up around 7am and showered. drove girls to dvc. got a call from auntie irma wishing me a happy birthday and that i get a boyfriend soon. went to starbucks for a frappucino. went to the batting cage to check out what time they opened. went home. worked a little. met the insurance claim agent. worked a little more. washed the car. watered plants. checked work emails. went to the batting cage (hit 140 pitches). checked emails again. got a pedicure. showered again. got a call from auntie nita wishing me a happy birthday and also wishing that i'd get a boyfriend soon. got a call from mom. picked up the girls. went shopping at stoneridge. bought new peridot stud earrings to replace the ones i lost a few weeks ago. bought some shampoo. went home to set vcr to tape real world austin (can't miss finding out why danny was crying). went to get dinner at fuddruckers (with auntie irma, auntie tess, hazel, bev, manny, josiah, ej, bernard, john, liz, brian, raquel, and marie) and watched some sf giants baseball (got excited that they were winning--would have been a great present if they had won but they ended up losing). got a target gift card and a t-shirt from brian and liz (just like what she was wearing but in blue). got another target gift card from auntie irma and family. got a happy birthday angel from bev-manny-siah, went to get mudd pies at claim jumpers (with bev, manny, siah, liz, raquel, and marie). got jt snow bart ticket/baseball card from liz (manny gave me his kirk reuter). went home and watched real world (danny's mom died). got a phone call from joey. did some work. went to bed around 1am.

didn't have any pre-birthday weekend plans. not really looking forward to my birthday. probably do some shopping to make myself feel better about getting another year older. anyways...

saturday went to dropped off Raquel and Marie at DVC for their orientation class. they said that the class ended at 12noon so i volunteered to pick them up. went shopping at target then did some gardening...planting the grapes. ended up getting there 10 minutes late. waited around for 1/2 hour but they didn't get out so i decided to go to the mall. good thing. i saw pk. i didn't know he was still here. i assumed he went back home because i hadn't seen him at church in almost 2 years. he still looks the same...so cute. oh well!

picked up the girls before going to my hair appointment. then hung out with the girls, bev, and josiah. siah was so cute eating ice cream. watched videos. siah, bev, and manny slept over.

sunday - went to church. ate at hawaiian barbecue. went to taco bell, kmart, matress shopping. foodmax. gardening. how boring. anyways. sometmes i like gardening. seeing beautiful flowers or having fruits/vegetables is worth all the work. i also like the solitude. i tend to do a lot of thinking when i'm gardening. i think about boys/men--mostly about james sometimes about the most recent HIM and about the past hims. oh well. it seems that whenever it gets closer to my birthday i do a lot of contemplating about my life. uuggghhhh...